Jan 31 2013
“…whatever is lovely…dwell on these things.” Philippians 4:8 I have my camera and I’m on a mission to photograph something that I consider truly lovely. My plan is to climb up into my attic and photograph a large Rubbermaid container that holds the treasures of my daughter, my Molly-girl. Since she has gone on to …
Jun 07 2012
“There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die… …a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance.” Ecclesiastes 3:1,2a, 4 Lately, conversations about death abound. Sometimes the conversations are woeful, …
May 12 2012
Many years ago, when the death of my daughter Molly was still fresh, I approached Mother’s Day with a sense of dread. I was navigating through some heavy depression, and in my emotional state, the day was merely a reminder of the way I had failed. The lies I believed had me convinced I had …
Dec 10 2011
Recently, I was allowing the imaginative child inside of me to ponder what Christmas is like for the souls who are celebrating the season in the presence of the Lord. Rationally, I know that Heaven is not linear in time and one of the mistakes we make is to humanize God. How can we envision …
Sep 20 2011
Amazing blue sky, you welcome me, and your far stretching beauty reminds me of things that have come and gone, and of things that will never fade–things that are mine forever. Weeks before her wedding my daughter received “something blue” for her wedding. A cotton handkerchief. Embroidered with simple white flowers. Soft from washing, aged …
Aug 05 2011
WRITE for 5 minutes without editing. Write using the prompt of the word WHOLE. GO There were too many conversations this month about babies who did not live. There were too many moments this month with parents, whose arms feel empty—even when they wrap themselves around another. July came and went like …
Aug 04 2011
On January 31st, about 2 hours before my daughter died, I was lying in bed with my baby girl, who I assumed had an upset tummy, and during those moments of half sleep and half wakefulness, I dreamed of her funeral. Or, should I call it a nightmare? It was an aerial view of the …
Jul 10 2011
The sermon at our church led into the topic of whether we will recognize one and other when we get to Heaven, leading me to a memory that I have from so long ago and bending my mind to what I believe on the subject of Heaven. In January of 1995, on a Sunday night, …
Jul 07 2011
“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me. Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.” Psalm 23:4 Truth be told, I was nervous today. I had the opportunity to go and be in the presence of a young couple who are …
Mar 22 2011
People have often asked if I could “feel” God the day Molly died, and while I have always known that I could, I couldn’t quite pin point how I felt Him. I knew He was there in the same way I often sense him now, through the quickening of the Holy Spirit. For example, scripture …
