Nov 04 2011
I’m standing on a pier in sunny California and I’m looking down on the crashing waves. The power combined with the beauty of the water is staggering. Each wave that crashes against the pillars of the berth and the surfers in their sport send my heart soaring…I am a California girl and I love the …
Sep 22 2011
Standing tall, but feeling weak…I remember being enticed. “No one will know.” “It’s not really wrong.” “This will make my day so much more easy to bear.” “I deserve this.” I reach out and up and my hand lands on the wrong choice. In the moment I am free–I fly like a bird. My heart …
Aug 05 2011
WRITE for 5 minutes without editing. Write using the prompt of the word WHOLE. GO There were too many conversations this month about babies who did not live. There were too many moments this month with parents, whose arms feel empty—even when they wrap themselves around another. July came and went like …
Jul 29 2011
Not too long ago, I had a bad few days.Fear and depression grabbed onto my mind and sent me plunging downward. In a moment of strength, I threw a bottle into the ocean with a message for help. My friend received the bottle and read my plea. She sent me a text message and told …
Jul 28 2011
People say that I am unusually transparent …I may as well live it to the fullest. There was a time when my behavior led me through the doors of the Hospital’s Emergency Room and then up to the “3rd floor” for a 72 hour hold. Yep, 3 days in a pink room with twin beds …
Jun 26 2011
Somewhere in the midst of this day, I lost her. I forgot my daughter’s 18th birthday. It wasn’t until 5:10 in the evening, while working in the cafe at my church, that I realized the date. A pastor of our church came in and wanted to put his apple turnover and iced tea on …
Mar 22 2011
People have often asked if I could “feel” God the day Molly died, and while I have always known that I could, I couldn’t quite pin point how I felt Him. I knew He was there in the same way I often sense him now, through the quickening of the Holy Spirit. For example, scripture …
Jan 20 2011
I don’t struggle with porn. It’s not a temptation for me in the slightest. But, last night I listened as a young man shared with a group of his peers about how he has been struggling with watching porn for a few years. He’s a teenage boy and the draw has been altering his life …
